RollerCoaster

What a rollercoaster of a day....I don't even know what to think.

Of course by now....everyone here (in blog world) knows we have been trying for a baby. This past cycle we tried really hard....and by that I mean we counted the days of my fertile time and did what we needed to do during those days. So I thought it was a strong possibility. I really did think that this month was "thee" month. Well today I set my alarm for 7am because I wanted to be at my church at 7:45 to volunteer at our food pantry that we have once a month. Well when I woke up I was soooooo nauseous. But it was a different type of nauseous than anything I have even experienced....it wasn't like a gas, flu, food poisoning type of nauseous...it was different. I couldn't even finish my cereal (still in the bowl on the counter right now...mushy! I barely made it to church...I arrived at 8am (when it opened) (I am never late for anything) I even had to hussle to my station before the families came in for their food. However, at the church I did not have the same feeling like at home....I felt so much better! Then after that was done...I came home to change clothes to go to the gym. While driving there...I got so nauseous again....it was so bad that I almost turned around and went home. But, as I got closer to the gym...I felt better. I seriously thought I was pregnant and getting morning sickness...I thought that at 7am. I even decided to do a very light work-out...I totally half a#$ed it. Then I went to the grocery store and felt the same way. I was totally convinced I was pregnant and going through my first day of morning sickness....I have never been so happy to be nauseous!

I even bought romaine lettuce and raw veggies to make a great salad for lunch and laughed at myself on the way home to see if I could even eat this great salad I was going to make.

Well after about 2 hours of being home.....I started my period. So nope wrong-o! Not pregnant.


Then I just let my dog out and I witnessed my new NEXT DOOR neighbor and her boyfriend (who by the way is younger than me and she already has one child from a different boyfriend)
pull into the driveway and she got out of the car not as pregnant as she was on Tuesday (last time I saw her) and she had balloons in her hands and papers and a overnight bag and her boyfriend ran around the car and took out a car seat with a baby in it and held the car seat and his girlfriend's arm to steady her as she walked in. So, I just witnessed someone else coming home from the hospital with a baby, I have never witnessed that before. I turned and ran/walked inside and burst into tears...this was not good timing!!!!!!

Also I was watching Army Wives and just finished the episode of Joan's baby shower.

So basically I thought I was pregnant for 7 hours.....now since my period started (two days early) I am completely devastated!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am just thinking about my younger than me next door neighbor in their house with a brand new baby who has only been home for 10 minutes. That should be me....thank goodness my husband is at work!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I didn't get his hopes up for nothing...........................


I really did think I was pregnant this morning....I do not feel nauseous at all right now.

I don't think I was ever so 'up' and then plummet straight 'down' in 7 hours.