More Details

Ok, here are more details.  Let me start by saying pregnancy is natural...trillions of women have done it.  I am going to be open and honest at all times.  So we might be leaning towards TMI.  If you do not like this, don't read it.  If you read it and give nasty comments than you are an idiot because I am warning you now.

Ok...I believe everyone already knows that we have been trying for 3 years to actively get pregnant.  We never have had any medical interaction what so ever and there are two reasons why.  The first reason I have already explained in an earlier post and the second reason I will explain in my next post.  The only thing I can think of to tell you is my husband quit smoking for 3 months (well he still has quit but it has been 3 months) I am not saying that is the reason, but that is the only thing that has changed.

I don't even know the order in which to explain things.  I hope you are able to understand this.

Well, it took a lot for me to buy a pregnancy test.  The first year and a half we tried I was buying test after test after test.  I wasted so much money and they were always negative.  Basically one day I promised myself that I wouldn't jump to conclusions because I never wanted to see another negative test ever again.  So remember it took a lot to even buy one now.

I don't currently have many 'symptoms' I have only had one real pregnancy symptom.  I did miss my period in March, BUT this really didn't say much to me because I miss periods all the time.  I was really late to even get them in high school and I only had 3 or 4 a year for the first 3 or 4 years...then I started to get them more often, but still not 12 a year.  They also were always really light and really short.  They usually started on a Tuesday afternoon....kind of bad on Wednesday...and then where totally done done done by Thursday evening.  My friends hated me.  So missing a period is not weird for me.  Also, I have never in my life had a 'cramp' from a period.  I actually had no idea what they even felt like.  I have had gas cramps before, but one good fart always made them go right away.  The only way in the past I knew my period was coming is I would pop a few zits and I know it was one 1 or 2 days away.  While on my period I would sometimes even forget I was because they were easy.  So...me missing a period is not shocking.  And this is the only symptom I have had.

I do not feel sick at all...I do not have breast tenderness....I have not cried at sappy commercials....I have not gone off on anyone.......I have not been overly tired  all the time (one small tid bit on this topic in a minute)....nothing......because of this I really don't feel as if this is real.....I feel like I am pretending.

  Well, last Thursday I was watching T.V. and at 9:30pm I was really tired and just had to go to sleep...I went to turn off the TV and I think I fell asleep while setting the remote down and rolling over because I don't remember anything after setting the remote down.  This was my one tid bit on tiredness.  This has been the only time I have been tired.

Early this week I had what I thought was an anemic attack at the gym but now I don't think that is what it was because it was really bad. 

And my last, hmmmm moment, came on Wednesday.  I was at work and I felt the need to sit down and then I got reaaaaallllllyyyyyyy hungry.  I never get really hungry.  I eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner so I normally don't feel extreme hunger.  Again Wednesday at 10:45am was the one and only time this happened.


So...the missed period....the 'anemic attack', the 9:30 exhaustion, and the Wednesday hungry moment all added together made my wonder.  I actually truly thought my anemia was getting worse.  But I bought a pregnancy test anyways.  It came in a two pack.  So I took both tests and they both came up to what I believed was a positive.  I still wasn't sure if I was reading them correctly because I was suppose to have 2 blue lines...well imo I had a blue line and a grey line...so I went back to the store and bought the digital tests.....


FYI----HERE IS A BIT OF ADVICE FROM ME.....BUY THE DIGITAL TEST FIRST....DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME ON THE TWO BLUE LINES.....I SERIOUSLY THOUGHT I WOULD SAVE A FEW BUCKS.....BUT AFTER I BOUGHT THE BLUE LINES AND DIGITAL....I SPENT MORE MONEY THAN IF I WOULD OF BOUGHT THE DIGITAL ONE FIRST....BUY THE DIGITAL ONE....YOU WILL FEEL MORE COMFORTED!!!!!!!!!

The lady at the store remembered me as buying a pregnancy test 45mins before...I was a little embarrassed.   Here is also a funny story-since I was home alone yesterday and I did some dishes and light cleaning....I didn't put my wedding rings on.  As I was driving to the store the first time I thought "Crap I don't have my wedding rings"  but then I did it again the second time.  I really wanted to say..."I am married"  I am not saying it is bad to have a baby and not be married.  I am just saying I am married and I just wanted to reflect that since I am. 

Well the digital test was also a 2 pack...so I took 4 tests total.  All 4 are positive.  I feel totally fine and normal....I do not feel pregnant at all.  But I did have 4 positive tests....2 digital......Also the digital tests said it could take 1-3mins to be done....my positive anwers was ready in like 20 seconds.

Well that is enough for this post I have more to come.